Tuesday, 07 July 2009
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An unexpected peace
made its presence known in me this morning. It wasn't a direct result of anything that I can put my finger on...but a combination of many. On my way to work, I heard Yolanda Adams (?) on the radio talking about how a man should have God in his life first and foremost. It was relaxing, comforting, reassuring even; to know that there's a woman on the planet that seems to have her life together and didn't have to bash men or God in the process of achieving "success" in the eyes of the majority.
I don't think cynical is the right word to describe my overall disgust with the opposite sex at the moment, but I'm not sure which word would be a better descriptor either. It seems that within the first 5 minutes of meeting someone they want to know what kind of job you have and what car you drive, and that's just a huge turnoff for me. My job and vehicle are the envy of many, but that doesn't make me the person I am. What happens if I lose my job and wreck my truck? What's going to keep you around?
My hope, and hope doesn't really describe the depth of this feeling I have, is that there are some women who want "security" (like every other woman), but understands that material things won't get her there. She looks for this security INSIDE the man she chooses to spend time with. No, I'm not an ugly guy...I get hit on quite often, so this isn't me being an ugly duck and wishing someone could see past my flaws. I have flaws just like every other underwear model (I'm not one, but it has been recommended to me many times that I should be)...I'm just ready to meet someone that I'm attracted to on all levels because they're mature enough to understand and appreciate the difference in wants vs. needs, and knows where to find them.
My roommate said I'm going to have to date women in their mid-to-late 30's...I'm not closed off to it, I'm just hoping she's wrong since I'm not there yet.
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I was having a conversation with a girl at work just yesterday. She has a 13 month old son, she is single and like me she is a pharmacist. She makes decent money and has her own place and everything, She was telling me how she really was getting to know this guy on the internet, then they decided to talk on the phone. She said he went on to explain how he doesnt have a job, he lives with his mother, he can't drive because he has a dui and he just went on and on....She said its hard for her to find someone on the same level as her. She said it really didnt matter if they made less than her or drove a smaller car than her, she just wanted a guy she could be compatably emotional with and at least have some goals in life. So you are not alone, their are women out there that think the same way. Alot of women who are independent tend to be single, because they are less needy. My husband is in the Army, Iam a pharmacist, if it were not for him I wouldnt be where Iam today. He helped me through school and pushed me to keep moving forward. My ex-husband on the other hand wanted me under his thumb 24-7. I finally left after having too much, it didnt take long. I think that people need people who have the same goals or strive to see each other succeed, Also i think people need people who are emotionally connected, like soulmates. I consider my hubby my soulmate. This is a good post and alot of men and women would probably agree with you. I hope you find your soulmate soon. She is out there. :)
@MICHELECANNON29 - Thanks for your reply. It is comforting to know that I'm not the only person having these feelings. Just so I know, where do pharmacists "hang out"?